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I will be blogging there from now on :)

Probably time for a post!?

It has been ages, its not that I have nothing to say, its just that once I got a little behind it seemed completely overwhelming to back track and fill in the gaps, so if things are jumpy and confusing thats just the way it is!




In just 126 DAYS!! I get to marry my best friend in the temple, and I am so excited! Its been a long and frustrating road to planning a date and truthfully, a lot of feelings have been hurt in the process. But now that its mostly dealt with we are getting very excited!

AND we are house searching! (so any tips you have send them our way;) We are looking to buy, we just arent sure where or what, but we have faith that it will work out.

I feel so blessed to have Kevin in my life, and knowing that in a little while we will be sealed together for all eternity is mroe than I ever thought it could be. He is amazing.



Anywho, thats all for now!

126 ;)

A post?

Its only been over a month, so far Im not doing much better at blogging! I'll try!

Im still doing the happiness project, and it may just be coincidence, but gosh darn it, I think it works! (I'll do a proper happiness project update one of these days)...BUT I am happier than EVER!

Although that may be greatly due to someone rather than my project, but hey, it all plays a part right?




Really there isn't a whole lot to say, Im just incredibly busy and counting down the weeks (3) until I don't have to work saturdays anymore and can have my life back!

The Happiness Project (#2)

Month one of the happiness project is coming to a close, which doesn't mean that I stop with goal number one, rather that I add goal number two...Number one was to "Be Gretchen", basically to be yourself, which is a huge accomplishment for me! And I love it!

February's goal is, "Let It Go"

I resolve to keep things in perspective. 

One of my resolutions is “Remember how little most things matter in the long run.” Also, I’m trying to be less defensive when I make mistakes.

I hate to be wrong, I hate to screw up, I hate to forget to do something – and it really bothers me when I do. I want to bore everyone with my endless explanations, justifications, and excuses.

That comes directly from the author, but it fits me to a T, so in the spirit of saving ya'll from my boring explanation I'll just leave you with that!

Bring it on February and goal number TWO. 

I have a goal.

Before I start, ya'll should be proud, Ive nearly updated as much this year as I did the entire last year....

But any who, I have a goal. I am going to read and follow "The Happiness Project". Actually Ive already read it once, but Im going to re-read it...And in keeping with the theme:

Personal Commandments:

1. Be Gretchen

2. Let it go

3. Act the way I want to feel

4. Do it now

5.Be polite and be fair
6. Enjoy the process

7. Spend out

8. Identify the problem

9. Lighten up

10. Do what ought to be done

11. No calculation

12. There is only love

Lately

Lately I can't sleep. Its not really a new thing, Ive never slept much at night my entire life...but the anger and anxiety I feel when I should be getting ready to go to bed is new. I have no idea whats going on. I am exhausted, but without fail by 9pm I start getting anxious about going to sleep....I just can't bring myself to shut the light off and go to bed. I am so tired, by 6pm I feel like I could go to sleep for the night, but as soon as it gets to a time when I actually can go to bed, NO SLEEP. And not just no sleep, but anger. For no reason, none that I can figure out at least. Its driving me nuts. Id like to sleep more than from 3:30/4AM to 5:30AM sometime.

Keeping it all together

Im not very good at balancing things, my life is probably no more chaotic than anyone else's but I feel like everyone else can keep it all together so much better than I can, at least thats how it appears from the outside.

I thought I was pretty good at faking it, but lately, Im not. Maybe I take too much on, maybe I expect too much of myself, maybe that failure thing I talked about last time, just maybe I set myself up for failure along with everyone else in my life.

But this is the time for change right? What better time then now to change things, even if that change means simply not caring.